i can smile all i want
bare bone disingenuously
go fuck yourself
you are horrible
leave me alone
its more than i can bare
leave me out of this
save your bullshit
i have to smile
im trapped here
you dont have to be a cunt
why should i care
leave me alone
civility is not challenging
just fuck off
endless ebbs a snaking a drowning
drained waiting undead
hopeful cords break my fall sometimes
a cold empty space in every room
the other they fear to converse with
some other variety of gloom
haunted by a homeless question mark
punctuation and grammar misplaced
a mismatch of tone and narrative
it aches all the time
soft cold air drifting down hard heavy
aimless pressure at winter dusk
the stationary feels heavy in my hand
rotting leaves rotting petals
branches out to catch and molest
bearing thorns waiting in dark
whispering on my neck we hate you
a poisoned kiss placed on nape
cliches in the dark as i walk home
My personality is shambolic,
I could cry at nothing right now.
A desperate need for something
to capture my imagination,
I’m hopelessly doubting everything
and I’m stuck in an otherworldly sense
of constant distraction.
Make everything dreamy I say to myself.
Please tell me a story.
The horrors of two mirrors colliding.
When the city collapsed into the lake
you left me alone in what was left.
My crystal eyes fell upon its fat belly.
as it screamed the names of every ghost,
every ghost I have ever known,
every thought that haunted too long,
every face that hated everything.
Depths invaded by the snide and hands,
sifting through seeds and flesh,
it’s not in here, where else could it be?
All stolen by the wrong one,
held down by the right,
down here is your castle’s future
and fate has fucked you senseless.