Is there anyway to articulate this without sounding melodramatic?
To have these thoughts considered without sounding self indulgent?
No, I thought not.
I want the whole world to shut the fuck up and leave me alone.
Sick to death of pushing up hill when everyone around me free-wheels.
Everything is easy to them.
It’s happening again and no-one helped me the last time.
Failing, drowning, smothered, exposed and cross examined.
Bored of the fight.
Listening to the surroundings of everyone droning on and on relentlessly.
Memory, mood, heart and physicality grinding slowly to a halt.
They scream out of focus.
Feeling suicidal again, it makes me sick to even acknowledge it.
Nothing is ever good enough and I’m relentlessly bombarded.
I want it all to fucking stop.